Thursday, February 19, 2009

Perfect Age

Life is so precious every minute people die and new lives are started. Life can be beautiful, or as some people say lifes a bitch than you die. I will let you decide. Me personally I can say my life isn't perfect but I am content. I just fear getting real old and not being able to do for myself. I also have a fear of dying, do you ever think what if I could live forever. If that was possible what age would you want to stay for the rest of your life.

If you're in the age range of 1-17 life can be easy but after a while can get very boring. You are forced to constantly follow instructions and rules from your elders. On the other hand being a child is stress free, no job, no kids, no bills and no worries.

Age 18-25. Those are like the golden years but don't get it twisted they come wit a negative vibe too...... A lot of people over the age of 30 tend to not respect anyone in this age bracket. Most think they are not mature or don't really understand what life is all about.
I personally feel if you reached this age and still don't understand life then you are way behind. This age limit is when your supposed to be getting your life together but also able to have fun.

30's- the age where your young but old. Maturing but still can have fun. Possibly raising a family. Getting the respect you might have been looking for in your twenties. Old enough to kick it with the old crowd or hang out wit the youngins.

Then you got the old head age 40 & up. 40 is the age when its time to start slowing it down a lil. You can still be full of life but not out of control. If you not 100% matured by now then you missed that bus.

I think if I could be one age for the rest of my life I would choose 27. 27 because your almost 30 and at that age you can get respect from the young crowd because your not that far away. At the same time you can get respect from the old heads because your at a age where your matured and been through the enough experiences to get the idea of what life is really about.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Dreams

Is the things that we dream what we want 2 become reality. How real are our dreams. When you dream of a sexy girl is it that u really fantasize about her while your awake. The dream that we have about a day in the life, one day just waking up & being Richie Rich. I used to have the same dream @ least once a week when I was in hs. The dream was while I was on my way 2 prom I got into a altercation that landed me in ICU with bullets wounds. I'm not very superstitious but having the same dream so much made me respect that the dream could be a reality, and kept the thought in the back of my mind.
How about having the dream that you were falling and when your about to hit the ground you wake up. Or even the dream every swears they never had, the "wet dream". How could dreams be so fake but make someone have an orgasm in there sleep. Then there is the funniest dream I ever heard of which is the pee dream. That is one I never can recall having, even as a young child. I'm sure I wet the bed as a youngster but I never had the excuse that I dreamed I was in the bathroom. What kinda dreams do you have and do you believe they come true?

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Benji (my dog)

Yesterday I come home to see that my dog is sick. He threw up a few times and is not getting up. My first thought was maybe he ate suttin that make him sick, until I realized he isn't responding very well and when he actually does its very delayed and he looks weak as he stands. I didn't know if its just yesterday or if his time is coming. Since day one with that dog he has always been very playful and full of life, so its weird to see him down & out.
As me and my mom spoke about it we came to realize that we found him when I was only 11 or 12 years old... That would make him 12 when you turn that into dog years he is like 84. In my mind I feel he will be fine but I never saw him like that before so it makes me feel like his clock might be ticking. If it is that time where his life is winding down I won't watch him suffer. I rather let him go and remember the good days.
With pets the cycle of life is always hard. You bring this animal into your home/life/family, its almost like raising another child. The life expentancy is only but so long so you must got thru the crushing reality that eventually they will leave us. My last dog lived 18 human years and we had to put her down. 18 years of having the same dog is a blessing but only made it hurt that much more when she was losing her life. That is sort of how I feel about my lil homie..... I cried 2 keep him, someone left him tied to my gate as a puppy, but my mom didn't want to keep him @ first. After all my crying my mom let me keep him and we fell in love wit him ever since. I think whether or not we have 2 put him 2 sleep now or years 2 come he will be my last dog. I see why they call them a mans best friend. They are loyal and always by our side.
We took him to the animal hospital and they said he had inflamtion in his "inner ear" basically his head. This is common in older dogs, its throwing his balance off, making him vomit, and making him lean to 1 side. They Dr. Said 2/3 of them recover from the illness and his case is not as far gone as he has seen in his practice. We had the option to take him home and give him meds or leave him...... I didn't want to bring him home like that so I figured we leave him in the hospital til weekend hopefully he gets better.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Current Mood


Lately I been happy. When I get angry or depressed I can look @ my phone and see a picture of my daughter that is enuff 2 make me smile. She is so tiny but plays such a big role in my life already. Thanks to everyone that sent text, ims, fb messaes etc. All the love and prayers were necessary..... On another note I can't really complain to mch right bot now, a lot of ppl don't have a consistent form of income in this recession and I'm able 2 go out and grind everyday, I must say that's a blessing..... I just had my brother in town for about a week wit his family eventhough I was occupied half the time they were here I still enjoyed there stay. I been out wit the homies lately a few times lately, and I hope that continues niggas gotta stick close. I'm kinda mad bout this basketball tourny that I been playing in but thats another story. I got my v-day party coming up next friday in guest house, a lot is going on right now. I must say this blog is more like a cluster of ideas but I haven't been on in a minute and just had a lot of things on my mind. I'm on my blog grind again sorry for the time off.......